wooooaaaaah what???

Its late afternoon, early evening. The sun is just setting and wouldn't you know after weeks of praying God speaks like he never had before. I was sitting on my bed, messaging on facebook and taking to random people. I had spent the past few days having some hard conversations and knew there were many more to come but i was talking to my best friend when this happened ( straight from facebook chat) :

Alyssa: you are a pretty deep woman of God aren't ya?
Me: we all have those things. and what are you talking bout your nuts if you think im a deep woman of God. sooo not the case
Alyssa: yeah you have a lotttt to talk about from your past and a lot to bring to the table in terms of helping people.you know what. i can easily picture you as a preacher hahaha

Some of you may be surprised  to know that this is not the first time this has crossed my mind. three years ago, in 10th grade we were asked to spend a week thinking about what we wanted to do with our lives. At that time I was really messed up but instantly, the first thing that came to mind was ministry. Three years later I now know God on a much deeper personal level and out of no where this comes up again. Well I shouldn't say out of nowhere really.Since Urbana I had been praying for guidance and direction and I had spent that afternoon in the word trying to sort through a lot of personal crud but this was soo unexpected. I had been questioning my major for a few weeks, unsure that that is what God has for me, and then this! Talk about a mountaintop experience. I don't know what this means yet but I am certainly praying about it. I am spending a lot of time, money and energy to be here and go to school. I don't want to waste all that on something that is not of God. Holy Moly as my little sister would say. Unexpected but expected at the same time. I have no clue where this is going yet but in  the next few weeks I can guarantee you will hear, see and read more about this. This is huge for me. A total wooooaaah whaaaat????? moment.