Change

Change is in the air.All around me i hear people telling me how proud they are of how far I have come, how they cant believe what God is doing in my life, how it;s incredible to see me because I am completely different. Well guys you may be right but heres a newsflash for ya. I am far from where I want to be. There are still some things that I am really struggling with, there are areas of my life where God hasnt come in and done his thing yet and I am seriously having a hard time surrendering those areas right now. I am not big tough and strong like you think I am. It's time you all see me for who I am. I am a christian teen who refuses to settle for anything less than what God wants for me. I know it may seem a bit ironic that I want all God has and yet I am fighting with myself to let go but thats the glory of my God. He waits until I am ready. He doenst force me into anything. But now I am seeing that I can't take the next step in my walk with him until i do let go of this one last thing so here goes nothing.God this is yours now. Do your thing. Make me what you want me to be and please take this thing that I've been fighting for way to long now. It's time to get closer than ever before and I know you can make it happen. Break down the walls and barriers and change me from the inside out... again.