This blog is about me, the good, the bad, the ugly. Its where I post about life, love, struggles, friends and things God is doing. I'm finding out what being me is all about. I'm finding out what it is I wanna do. I'm finding out just where all my passions Lie. It's falling into place now one piece at a time. I'm finding out who I am, what I love, where I belong. It's all about me being Just Me and Nothing More.
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Today
I haven't been writing as much as I usually do the past few weeks. I am not really sure why that is. Maybe life has just had me busy maybe not but this much I do know. My heart is full and it's time to let the thoughts and feeling flow onto the screen once again. Not much has changed lately to be honest. Still looking for a job and spending as much time as I can learning and growing but something deep inside has been bubbling. I can't put my finger on it but the days seems to be passing more slowly, my heart is not as joyful as it usually is and life just seems off. Thoughts of family and friends fill my days. Counting down the days until my friends return to the north country and wondering what God has in store for this coming year. I guess I feel a bit confused right now, and hungry. Very hungry for what God's word says, and what God has to say to me personally. Things have been so different lately. Not in a good way or a bad way really just different. I need to take time to clear my head I guess. So much has happened this summer. I guess as the music plays tonight, as I read a book, as I pray and cry a bit, and let my hear spill out I find myself wondering why I am here, what I am doing and when things will change yet again. These are just the ramblings of an uneasy heart on a late Thursday night but there is much to pray about right now. I have so many questions floating around, so many thing I need to do. My mind is so full and my heart is heavy but I don't know why. I wonder what God is trying to tell me but I can't quite hear him right now. Which takes me back to I need to clear my head and work through some stuff. Realizing there is more healing to be done and that I am not a strong, or as ok as I thought I was when it comes to the past. I have started sharing more about life before I came to Potsdam and it has been hard and it has brought up a lot for me. So yeah. That's what's been going on today. I need to write more I suppose and certainly need to pray more.