Looking Past the Past

Its always been there I just didn't want to see it. The soft tender loving girly side. I had to be big and tough and strong to survive but underneath i really just wanted to be pretty and lady like. I wanted dresses and shoes and sparkles but i knew my family didn't see me that way, wasn't that way so I conformed now I'm breaking out of my shell. That loving sensitive caring girly side is coming out. It was always there even though people didn't see it and neither did I. It is slowly coming to the surface. The writer. The lady. The sensitive girl I always wished I could be is blooming like a rose and whats been hidden in the center is now coming up for the world to see. I will be a surpising change to those who once knew me but maybe I'm not such a tomboy after all. Where do i end and family begin. That's the million dollar question. What was my family saying this is you and what was really me? Learning who I am and liking the new more and more everyday.