Butterflies

With everything going on lately things have been really crazy. New "friends", new adventures, new projects and goals. With all that comes a lot of stress. With that stress comes major mood swings. With those mood swings come major fears, awful lows, and scary thought. I was thinking about how I dealt with all this today. There are many things I do to keep myself sane. This is the list i came up with:

1. I pray
2. I write
3. I sing
4. I talk, to friends and God
5. I follow the Butterfly project rules

For those of you who don't know what the butterfly project is these are the general rules:

1. when you feel like you want to cut, take a marker or pen and draw a butterfly on wherever the self-harm occurs. 

2. name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 

3. NO scrubbing the butterfly off.

4. if you cut before the butterfly is gone, it dies. if you don't cut, it lives.

5. if you have more than one, cutting kills them all.

6. another person may draw them on you. these butterflies are extra special. take good care of them.

7. even if you don’t cut, feel free to draw a butterfly anyways, to show your support. if you do this, name it after someone you know that is suffering right now, and tell them. it could help.

Not sure why I am really writing this post but in the end I hope it helps someone. It's a hard struggle, an uphill battle sometimes to keep yourself clean, sober, harm-free and living a life God would want you to live. These are things that help me. Things I rely on daily. Things I wouldn't be able to survive without.