when every second hurts more than the last
when every memory of what things used to be brings a tear
when you don't know if you can take just one more hit
when you're at the end of your rope
when the world is crashing around you and all hope seems lost
when you take that moment to take a deep breath
when you count the cost
sometimes its hard to keep going
when every minute brings more fear and worry for the one you love
when walking with Jesus seems to be complicating matters
in that split second when you catch yourself thinking just one
one wont hurt
in the second right after that when you say oh heck no
when you realize that God
the one that loves you
the one that saved your life
the one that keeps you going
the one that gives you everything you need and so much more
when you realize that he is there
that he is holding him up in his hands
that as you and your friends stand in front of him in prayer
praying so hard and so long
that he is there holding you all and holding that one you love
that he will keep his promised to you
that you see him again
that the next time you see him he will be safe
he will be sober
he will be saved
that is will happen
that your prayers aren't being wasted
that your God is the God who answers prayers
loves when you are unlovable
that he too has counted the cost
that he has counted it and paid it
so that the two of you one day can look back and say
yeah that was hard but we did it together
the cost has been counted and re-counted
the cost has been paid
the prayers are being heard and soon
very soon
the prayers will be answered
that is just how awesome he is
just how he works
for me and for you
always and forever
