hurt

I dont know what is worse. the fact that she hasn't called once to see how i am or the fact that she never invited me to my brothers birthday or that she couldn't be bothered to call for a family event or maybe its knowing that its been almost a month and the only time she wants to talk is if she needs something. i cant play her games anymore. i need my mom. i need the mom i should have standing beside me right now. not the mom i see at the moment. i dont know wether im more angry or hurt but i know i feel both and i also know i have an amazing friend sitting beside me helping me through all this. what would i do without god and my bestie? its to scary to think about!