Behind The Scenes
It is
the end of March. I am a senior. I am graduating in three months. Talk about
not being prepared! In September I start a new life but what about now? I have
never been really open about what happens after the last bell rings but this
past week I have been thinking a lot and I have realized that it’s what happens
behind the scenes that really matter.
Three major projects are due in the
next week and a half. All of them seem to be exactly what I am good at. Art,
music, and writing have been always been my favorite ways to spend my free
time. It seems almost unreal that in three classes I get to create projects
that I absolutely love. Write a play for Lambert, build an island for Bunker,
and create a road trip presentation for Hardin. I have spent more time doing
stuff I love over the past week than I have spent doing anything I enjoy over
the past three months combined. This could not have come at a better time for me.
I am not like most of my friends. I
don’t spend a lot of time out with other people and I don’t like going to the
mall or spending a fortune on stuff I really don’t need. In the end all I
really want to do is be alone. I want to read and write and paint and create
and build stuff and be outside. That is who I am. I would rather spend my
weekend on a farm mucking stalls and cleaning the barn than going out shopping
and partying with my friends.
People think it’s weird that I never
go out. That I spend all my time alone or with my family. They call me odd and
they call me a freak of nature but all I really am I me. Behind the scenes when
no one is watching I am just me. Nothing special and nothing great. I just know
who I am and what I love. Is there really anything wrong with that? Don’t ask
me how I am or how I am feeling. You will get the same answer every time you
do, I’m ok. Ask me what I created today or what I am reading or where I am
going. Chances are if you really want to know what’s on my mind you will find
it in some of my art or floating about on the wind after as I fly about in the
great outdoors.
