What Now?

My phone vibrates and my heart skips a beat. Is it him again? What is he going to say this time? I smile and I laugh and I wonder. What is this? What is happening? I don't understand the feelings or thoughts. I don't know just what to make of all this. It's too good to be true but I know I am not dreaming. It is insane. I am losing my mind. He is very real. Late night talks, questions fly back and forth. Commonalities and differences come to light. And then I think to myself. Wait. Slow down. Think things through. Breathe. One day, one hour, one minute, one text at a time. No need for labels or words or rushing into things. It's a blessing. It's new. It's a beautiful thing. But it's just that. It's new. Sometimes I get swept up in the moment and I get confused and I get all weirded out and worried about silly things that don't matter and sometimes I get way over excited. And other time I get scared. Emotions go crazy. Sometimes they tend to color our days in ways that we can't explain. I took a step out on a limb and I took a risk and I met someone rather amazing. Now what? Well I don't know what now. One day, one hour, one minute, one text at a time. That's what now.